Deserving

Mistakes, bad decisions,
Losing all hope.
Fighting for my way to the surface.
Just trying to stay afloat.

I feel so uninvolved, unwanted,
Unworthy.
I feel alone,
Seperated.

I’m climbing,
Slipping,
Gaining ground,
Falling back.

Each step I take,
I take many more backwards.
What can I do?
How do I reach the surface?

I sit with my head in my hands,
Defeated, lost.

I hear a voice,
I dont see anyone.
I look around,
I’m alone.

I hear it again,
“Look at the sky child,
You’re not alone.
Climb to the surface.”

It says,
” focus on my voice,
On my encouragement,
On my love.”

A burst of inspiration,
In my scraps of clothes,
He chose me.
Suddenly I felt a sense of calm.

I started climbing,
I was determined.
Determined to reach the surface.
Determined to be me.

He chose me,
To see me through my troubles,
To push me , to love me.
He chose, Me.

I am deserving,
Deserving of love,
Deserving of compassion,
Deserving of gifts.

Because of Him,
I will succeed.

By: Carrie Labiak