Author Archives: Carrie Labiak

I hear people say,“If it were my child, I would…”I hear it everyday.I loathe that statement. If it were your child,I would hope,You wouldn’t have to dealwith addiction. If it were your child,I hope you get all the answers,All the resources,All the prayers in the world. The way I’ve handled this,The cards I’ve been dealt,TheContinue reading “Your Child”

Words dripping with destain,Hatred flowing through your veins.Vulger spewing from your lips.Disgruntled look on your face. Each word hits like a brick,Bruising my sense of worth.Belittling me till I’m begging;For you to stop.Pleading for the name calling to end. I cover my ears,Tears flowing down my face like a river.I picture myself somewhere else,I’m numb.IContinue reading “Ugly”

The same clothes as the day before,Dirt stains on my neck,Hair, a messHomework not done. I remember, walking fast to school,I was late, over slept.I was 10, maybe.And very tired and hungry. Sad really, the night before,I was up till 3am-4am.Defending my being,Failing to protect my innocence. Disheveled, disoriented, vacant.I get pulled out of class.MyContinue reading “I Was That Girl”

My gaurdians.Saved me from a life of hell.Fighting for my freedom.Together as one , bonded since birth. Oh, how I love thee… Once there was a girl,So stricken with hatred,Bathed in ugliness. Looked down on herself,She didn’t think she was worthy of anything.She indulged in drinking at a young age.Numbing the pain,Numbing the knowing ofContinue reading “Warrior Women”

I’ve needed you since as long as I can remember.I’ve longed for you,In a time and placeThat was not for us to share. I sensed you were near at times,And prayed you would find me.I survived all I could,Day in and day out,Just to be here, in this moment with you. All I have,All I’veContinue reading “My Very Breath”

I just want my children to be happy and healthy.Not to suffer, get hurt, or get sick.When they were little, I could fix everything with a hug, or a kiss, All the Booboos would be healed laughter would fill the room..My angels… Now, they are older,sometimes a hug will be ok,they dont want me to kiss theirContinue reading “Dear Mamma”

Mistakes, bad decisions,Losing all hope.Fighting for my way to the surface.Just trying to stay afloat. I feel so uninvolved, unwanted,Unworthy.I feel alone,Seperated. I’m climbing,Slipping,Gaining ground,Falling back. Each step I take,I take many more backwards.What can I do?How do I reach the surface? I sit with my head in my hands,Defeated, lost. I hear a voice,IContinue reading “Deserving”

I was afraid of monsters.Monsters under my bed,Monsters in my closet.Monsters in the shadows. Leave the door open a crack,Let the light in,The noises, plug my ears,Sleeping with one eye open. Are they childish fears?The thoughts in my head,My imagination, is going wild.Am I imagining this? Who would have thought,The monsters I tried so hardContinue reading “Monsters”

Be yourself; Everyone else is already taken. — Oscar Wilde. This is the first post on my new blog. I’m just getting this new blog going, so stay tuned for more. Subscribe below to get notified when I post new updates.

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